BEGINS BOOK ONE:

March 20th I decided to write this for the baby. Tom knows and he’s okay with it. It must’ve happened with David just before all of this happened. I don’t know how I feel about completely yet, but it’s a baby. A baby needs a home. Security. I talked to Tom about that. My baby will have a safe home, tom said so. I guess Tom was with Lydia before. I hear others make comments. Mention her name. She looked like me. Tom says only a little, I say it doesn’t matter. Not really. He’s with me now. He says he loves me. I believe that. He knows about the baby. He says he won’t leave me, what more is there to need? Or ask for? I just don’t want my baby to be unneeded or unloved, abandoned like I was. I know how that feels. I don’t know about Lydia. I’m sorry she was killed. So much has happened. I’ve seen people killed right in front of me. I guess I need therapy… That’s supposed to be a joke… Not a good joke, I guess. We’ve all seen a lot. There are no shrinks left to talk to. I’m going to tell Sandy about the baby. Tom agreed. She’s a nurse. She knows things and I’m a little afraid of how it will be. We are going to leave April 1st. That’s not long. I can’t wait, really. Nothing, almost nothing, good has happened here except the baby and Tom. I don’t mind going… March 25th The last several days have been really hard. So many crazy people. We have two more women. I don’t have to worry about either of these two around Tom. Not that I do. I’m really not that insecure. I was one of the ones today. I mean the ones with some responsibility. I used to laugh at that. But it made me feel good today to be entrusted. I drove one of the trucks. Mike gave me some juice. It was nice. Sometimes I think he thinks of me as a little girl. Maybe that will change? I Hope so. I’m almost the same age as Candace after all. Goodbye cave, hello road.

BEGINS BOOK TWO